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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Tue, 19 Dec 2006 22:43:29 GMT

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 19:35:41 GMT

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't
Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete
Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

I think I'm going to be ok this time. I don't need you anymore.

Monday, November 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 01:25:58 GMT

Dear Friend, what's on your mind
You don’t laugh the way you used to
But I've noticed how you cry
Dear friend, I feel so helpless
I see you sit in silence
As you face new pain each day
I feel there’s nothing I can do
I know you don’t feel pretty
Even though you are
But it wasn’t your beauty
That found room in my heart

Dear friend, you are so precious Dear Friend

Dear friend, I'm here for you
I know that you don’t talk too much
But we can share this day anew
Dear Friend, please don’t feel like you're alone
There is someone who is praying
Praying for your peace of mind
Hoping joy is what you'll find
I know you don’t feel weak
Even though you are
But it wasn’t your strength
That found room in my heart
Dear friend, you are so precious, Dear Friend

Sometimes there are things you wish someone would say to you

Monday, November 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 01:57:43 GMT

He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

This could actually be meant towards quite a few people right now. I hate not having a best friend anymore.

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 02:25:35 GMT

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space

No matter how much I deny it., I do miss you and you're one of the most amazing things that has ever happened to me. It's times like this when I wish I didn't handle myself like this: cutting everything off acting like it doesn't matter then breaking down. I know it seems like I don't care and I've moved on but really, losing you this summer has killed me.

Although I hate to admit it, you two are perfect, much better for eachother than we ever were. Be happy, please. I want you to be.

Friday, September 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 21:05:00 GMT

&hearts;

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 23:16:11 GMT

Why does this still bother me? It shouldn't after all this time

I'm wiser now
Im not the foolish girl you used to know
So long ago
I'm stronger now
I've learned from my mistakes which way to go

Friday, August 18, 2006

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 02:20:18 GMT

There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 18:29:45 GMT

I've been thinking a lot lately. A lot of stuff has been brought up from the past due to recent situations (not going into detail, if you know me well enough you know what I'm talking about). I can't seem to hate him, I never could. No matter how much shit he did to me, I never could bring myself to do it. He always had that control over me and after all this time he still does. His actions put me in one of the scariest places I have ever been and it's all starting to come back again. It's always at the back of my mind.

Your not the person who you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 14:24:55 GMT

You found a place where you belong
New friends that can do no wrong
That's what you believe
But who is going to be there when you fall
To build up when you are feeling small
Give you love that you need
Who will, I will
When the whole world turns against you,
Ain't no lie

Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you are going through
I'm still on your side
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side

Tha pretty much sums it up.